Where Does It All Fit In?!

Lately, I’ve been looking around and noticing just how much there is to do. The urge to get everything done right now is loud and relentless. I went from fully surrendering into peace, releasing the need to do anything, to suddenly feeling a surge of energy to get my life together—and needing it to be together this instant. The extremes don’t surprise me anymore, especially since I tend to get inspired by new goals often.

One of the most pressing things? Fitness and weight loss. Which, honestly, hasn’t been a major focus for me in a long time. Initially, I just wanted to shake off a funk. I noticed my mobility wasn’t where I was comfortable with, and my body was telling me—it needed to move. It craved something beyond my usual practices. And since I take what my body tells me seriously, I listened. I added the gym to my routine with a simple goal: move more. And my body thanked me for it.

What I didn’t anticipate was how much space it would take up in my life. You see, I actually enjoy working out. It takes time, it requires presence, and soon enough, it became a regular part of my day. I’ve always devoted time to pleasure practices, but now, I’m learning to embrace fitness and lifting as a pleasure practice. Making sure I stay flexible—physically and mentally—while maintaining a loving, supportive relationship with my body through all its changes has been my focus.

At first, I struggled. The pull toward instant results kept creeping in, distracting me from the deeper work I had already cultivated around self-acceptance. But I realized—this is exactly where that work needed to come into play. Mirror work became more important than ever.

Since turning 30, my body has changed again. More curves. More sensitivity. Different needs. More patience. Each month, I notice both the improvements and the moments of stillness I need to honor. And because my foundation is strong, my rituals come easier. My body craves more touch, more massages for recovery and emotional release. My hips call for more opening to stay fluid—and I answer.

Now, I do my best to see my fitness journey as part of my pleasure journey.